Friday, January 13, 2012
Epiphany #34
Ummm so I'm on a new quest. Well not so new just finally putting it into the universe. I am in search of my second chapter of life. I know it's going to be really great I can feel it rising from my belly. I just don't know exactly what "it" is. I am not sure what questions to ask so that I receive the right answers. I know for sure it will have something to do with making others happy. I know this because I have always gotten the most joy when others pain is alleviated in the slightest way. I'm smiling now just thinking about it... I know that when I create I am happy soooo do I sell my wares or do I create someplace that teaches people the joy of creation?? I'm not searching for the spotlight but if it finds me I'll be able to handle it with humility. I'm feeling a little uneasy and don't want to seem as if I am not interested in moving forward. However I need a starting point that makes a little bit of sense. So I'm putting out my feelers; putting on my thinking cap and sitting as still as possible so I can hear the slightest whisper. I'd like my children to be able to remember me for some sort of quiet greatness... something to tell my grands & great grands about. I would like to touch the lives of many and leave my heartbeat on the wind. So, my New Quest begins now. God does not make mistakes people do. So I'd like to take my time and follow the path the He has laid for me. Ready, Set, Go!!! :-)
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Epiphany #33
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! Well is's the 1st week in the year 2012 I made it! I brought in the new year praising God at my church "Fresh Beginnings". It was an intimate gathering and it was nice to hear about the growth that my church family saw in themselves threw 2011. I am excited about what 2012 has in store for me, and I pray for the strength to navigate my way with more patience. Everything always works out for me in the end so why get myself worked up? I am super tired this week and feel as if there is a medical issue that I need to address yelling in my ear. I have to get a full physical and soon...
I found a picture of my former slimmer self today. The picture is about six years ago I was so slim, skinny really. I don't think I want to be that small again (size 6/7) but size 10/12 could work. I think I'm about a size 13/14 down from a tight 16 in about 5 months. I'm going to continue to workout & perhaps add a few more classes a week. I would like to loose a lil more belly fat & some more flesh of these thighs. My ankles have stopped swelling every day & I feel healthier so I'm going to keep it moving.
I am going with the flow for 2012. That means I will no longer allow outside personalities influence my attitude. I will no longer second guess myself because people don't have my God given insight. I will continue to be open to new ideas but I will not discard my own in the process. I AM, I WILL....
This year I will be the best me that I can be for me... I am important. If I don't save myself I won't be around to help anyone else, right?
It's amazing how much more there is to do when you are unemployed smh. I feel as if I'm at everyone's mercy and that they think I have nothing better to do so why not get her to do it. On the other hand would I even leave the house otherwise? LOL I guess I would just not quite so often. It's winter for real now so I'd prefer to stay indoors so I might say no a lot more brrrrrrrrr. Oh wow my Christmas tree is still up, I guess I should probably take that down today.
I feel like something big is coming my way this year. Nothing ominous but something different as if what has been here for my entire existence will finally come to light for me. Something that I overlooked because it is second nature to me. I believe that the revelation will catapult me into my next level of self. Isn't that an exciting thought? My prayer is always for the Lord to stir up what is within me & excite me. Now excitement for me may not be what excitement is for you; which is fine. I am quite laid back in my thinking so if it puts a smile on my face or makes me say "OOooooo" that is pretty doggone exciting for me. (LOL) If I can manage to touch a few people and help them to see their own worth helping them understand that what they bring to the world is a good thing than I am satisfied. *smile
It "IS" a great year in the making.
I found a picture of my former slimmer self today. The picture is about six years ago I was so slim, skinny really. I don't think I want to be that small again (size 6/7) but size 10/12 could work. I think I'm about a size 13/14 down from a tight 16 in about 5 months. I'm going to continue to workout & perhaps add a few more classes a week. I would like to loose a lil more belly fat & some more flesh of these thighs. My ankles have stopped swelling every day & I feel healthier so I'm going to keep it moving.
I am going with the flow for 2012. That means I will no longer allow outside personalities influence my attitude. I will no longer second guess myself because people don't have my God given insight. I will continue to be open to new ideas but I will not discard my own in the process. I AM, I WILL....
This year I will be the best me that I can be for me... I am important. If I don't save myself I won't be around to help anyone else, right?
It's amazing how much more there is to do when you are unemployed smh. I feel as if I'm at everyone's mercy and that they think I have nothing better to do so why not get her to do it. On the other hand would I even leave the house otherwise? LOL I guess I would just not quite so often. It's winter for real now so I'd prefer to stay indoors so I might say no a lot more brrrrrrrrr. Oh wow my Christmas tree is still up, I guess I should probably take that down today.
I feel like something big is coming my way this year. Nothing ominous but something different as if what has been here for my entire existence will finally come to light for me. Something that I overlooked because it is second nature to me. I believe that the revelation will catapult me into my next level of self. Isn't that an exciting thought? My prayer is always for the Lord to stir up what is within me & excite me. Now excitement for me may not be what excitement is for you; which is fine. I am quite laid back in my thinking so if it puts a smile on my face or makes me say "OOooooo" that is pretty doggone exciting for me. (LOL) If I can manage to touch a few people and help them to see their own worth helping them understand that what they bring to the world is a good thing than I am satisfied. *smile
It "IS" a great year in the making.
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