So I woke up this morning with my spirits high. I'm trying to maintain that as a daily plan of action. I want to get back to the place of peace I was once in. I'm really trying to keep my stress levels to a minimum. I find that as I try to pull out of the mainstream people tend to think I'm being influenced by others. What others?? I'm home alone with the Lord and my cats all day. I have been out of work for over a year now and I've decided that God has a really big plan for my life that I have somehow missed. Or perhaps I haven't missed it at all. I have taken the time to really try to take care of me this year. I've started to eat better, exercise and even seek medical care these are things I just didn't have time for any of these things when I was working. I feel better physically than I have in a long while. I've begun to write again not only in this blog either. I still have to find the inner strength to really tackle this clutter it's the last thing that seems to be hanging over me like a dark stormy cloud smh.
I really wish that people could really accept others as they are. As long as how they think, live and feel don't invade or ruin anything around them what's wrong with who they are. I am soooo satisfied with who I am, how I think and how I do things. Do I still have room to grow? Absolutely! Am I in a rush to get there? Nope. Life is to be enjoyed and I just don't enjoy life when I'm rushing around trying to prove or explain myself to others. Why does it bother people that I'm so laid back???? I don't get super excited about a lot somehow that gives people the impression that I need to be motivated. I find this interesting considering how much I get done. I am so not in a rush to fit it all in whatever "it" is. I'm not that inquisitive I don't have a need to know how everything works or how it came to be. I also do not knock those people who have a need to know those things. God created us all according to what His pleasure, need or desire was. How incredibly boring this earth would be if everyone was the same. I am annoyed with someone else's need to change people according to there own ideas of excellence. Such shallow narrow minded thinking, funny thing is these need to know folks don't seem to want to find out why I am the way I am. I guess they are just too busy trying to make me "better" or more like them. It's really a shame because I really am pretty great and happy with sitting on the dock of the bay watching the tide roll away. Again, why is this a bad way to live and/or think? Now don't get me wrong I think we can all learn from each other and I do. I have learned about what makes people do the things they do and sometimes I even think how it might be kinda cool to do some of the things they're doing. (I've even tried somethings, usually not for me.) Seems like I've spent a lot of time defending who I am. I have had a youthful face so it's made it quite difficult to convince folks that I know what I'm talking about. I think that age means a lot to folks and they tend not to give a thought to youthful thinking. I believe everyone has something great to offer at every age. What make anyone think another person has not taken the time to think about themselves? I have lots of questions today. My Mom raised us to be free thinkers and never made us feel as though we weren't able to make things happen. We were taught right and wrong and how to treat one another. Our thoughts were validated. If you have to tear someone down to build them up you are doing too much!!!
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