FRUSTRATED
Why is it only "WE" when we are talking about my stuff????
Any other time it's my stuff this & my stuff that. That's mine.
Yet I have to hunt for things just to find out there is none left.
Another gripe, how come I'm the only one replacing anything
even though I hardly use it??? *SIGH -__-
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Monday, April 16, 2012
Epiphany #37
AAAARRRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!
Teenagers!! I am almost there. I am almost out of the teenage thing. Hi, I am the parent of a teenager -_-.
I so remember what it was like to be a teen and to not want to do anything. I remember being so smart that everything about the classroom bored me. I remember thinking every day how stupid it was to have to get up to go to a place I so disliked. I remember how petty everyone and there so called problems were...I remember. I also look back now on the opportunities I threw away by giving in to those feelings of dread and not pushing past them. I am content in who I am for today but I could have been so much further had I just challenged my smart self to figure out a way to outsmart the system. I could have found a way. It's too bad I didn't just put in a slight effort. Fear will swallow you if you let it.
My teenager will just have to hate me for the next couple of years I can take it. She has to know that I am so right about this, after all she IS me for goodness sake! My Mom was a relaxed parent and I was spoiled so I kind of did what I wanted. I allow my children a lot of the same but I draw the line at education. Education is a necessity. Pull yourself together little girl!! I need you to survive this you are almost out of the storm of emotions, hormones and uncertainty. You can and will survive!! You may not believe it now but I love you enough to take the hate. So one day I hope that the yelling and the lectures and the fussing with the threats of bodily harm will make you smile for the inside out. One day you will know just what I was willing to sacrifice for your future.
Two more years and one graduates from college and "this" one moves into the start of the freedom she so craves. I just have to push you until you get there.
Teenagers!! I am almost there. I am almost out of the teenage thing. Hi, I am the parent of a teenager -_-.
I so remember what it was like to be a teen and to not want to do anything. I remember being so smart that everything about the classroom bored me. I remember thinking every day how stupid it was to have to get up to go to a place I so disliked. I remember how petty everyone and there so called problems were...I remember. I also look back now on the opportunities I threw away by giving in to those feelings of dread and not pushing past them. I am content in who I am for today but I could have been so much further had I just challenged my smart self to figure out a way to outsmart the system. I could have found a way. It's too bad I didn't just put in a slight effort. Fear will swallow you if you let it.
My teenager will just have to hate me for the next couple of years I can take it. She has to know that I am so right about this, after all she IS me for goodness sake! My Mom was a relaxed parent and I was spoiled so I kind of did what I wanted. I allow my children a lot of the same but I draw the line at education. Education is a necessity. Pull yourself together little girl!! I need you to survive this you are almost out of the storm of emotions, hormones and uncertainty. You can and will survive!! You may not believe it now but I love you enough to take the hate. So one day I hope that the yelling and the lectures and the fussing with the threats of bodily harm will make you smile for the inside out. One day you will know just what I was willing to sacrifice for your future.
Two more years and one graduates from college and "this" one moves into the start of the freedom she so craves. I just have to push you until you get there.
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