Should disappointment hurt so much?

Friday, March 11, 2011

Epiphany #15

People in your life only know the parts of you that you reveal to them.
It's only when they go the extra mile that they discover that there is more to you than that.
Can I really be saddened by the fact that my fear of full disclosure has left me alone in a crowd?
Because I am hidden in full view I know what shadows in the sunlight look like. I know when someone is standing in the sun under an invisible umbrella. I know that I need to reach beyond the parts that they reveal & softly, gently touch their soul. I know why the caged bird sings because I sing the song Louder than the next..I want to unlock the cage door and leave it wide open so they can come and go. I want to set them free from the cage they built to protect themselves from everything. I don't want to stand in a crowd of lonely people hiding who they are or want to be. I'm sad and happy at the same time. Is that even a reality? I'm happy because I know that my life is really a good one. I'm sad because even though my life is good it should be great. I don't know how to get to the greatness...isn't that sad.
Can I really be saddened by the fact that my fear of full disclosure has left me alone in a crowd? Sadly...yes